Thurs June 25, 2009

Surgery day. At 7:15am they came to get Blake for his MRI. My mom and dad and grandparents were here. We all walked down the hallway till we couldn't go any further. They sent my family to the waiting room, and then after kissing our baby, we too were sent to the MRI waiting room. They told us it would be about 1 1/2 to 2 hour wait. We met Dr. Shore from Hemotology/Oncology. Then finally we were able to see Blake. Since Dr. Hornig was still in surgery with another patient, they sent us back to our room to wait. I was happy to spend some more time with Blake. An hour or so later the anethesialogists were here to get Blake ready for surgery. We walked down and sat in the prep room till Dr. Hornig came to talk to us. He let us know that the tumor was deep and very large. He said he was going to be conservative with removing the deep parts. We were scared. I still remember his face as he was telling us-the look of seriousnous and he told us factually not misleading or trying to give us false hope. We gave Blake kisses goodbye and walked down to meet our family in the surgery waiting room. We had a long wait ahead of us. 4 hours atleast. I was so scared. I couldnt eat, it was consuming me. I have such a great support team. The only thing that held me together during our long wait-was our amazing family and friends. We had so many visitors come up that the time seemed to go by quickly. I honestly dont know what I would have done without them. Blake's surgery started at 1:15 pm and he was done with surgery at 5:15pm. We weren't able to see him till closer to 7:30pm. We all went to the PICU to wait for the nurses to call us back. I went back first, and thats when everything caught up to me. I was going on 2 hours of sleep, no food, and I felt like I was going to pass out. After seeing Blake for 5 min I had to leave to go back to the waiting room to eat something. I ate 2 pieces of pizza was given a cup of ice chips and a cool washcloth. Three nurses and a doctor came to check on me. I kept tellin them I was ok. Once the color was back in my face everyone took turns going back to see Blake. One of the first things he said to me was "thank you mama thank you". This was a big deal because prior to surgery he never put words together. I almost cried. I was so relieved to see that he was still 'Blake'.